My head is always full of thoughts. Yet so full it seem completely empty. Sometimes I start thinking like this “Hmm, but how should I do alsdawuhflaejknvshwkwkpl. What was my very first thought again?” But these days my head as been completely just only “aøfaøeirjgæoskjwbqdjh”. Some of the days I spent home I managed to keep my mind pretty empty and calm. I painted, played piano, went for walks, hung out with friends and my family, did house chores and helped my mother out etc. And I managed pretty well. I noticed I was really lethargic and tired, and I slept a lot more than during my exam period. I mostly slept long because I slept for very long in the morning, because I didn’t really have much to wake up for, and I am not a morning person haha.
I guess life is supposed to be all a bumpy ride, positive and negative things arrive. If not the words “positive” or “negative” probably wouldn’t exist. Just, sometimes it’s tiring. Luckily I am thankful that I am managing, hanging in there, even though I feel like sometimes I’m going through things I shouldn’t have to go through and deal with things I shouldn’t. I guess for some people, yeah, I seem weak. But I’d say I am strong as well ^^
Soon my resting and somewhat carefree days at home will come to an end, and I’ll go back to my own little crib again. About just a month ago I was really looking forward to this time, but something recently occurred, that I am not quite sure how I should handle, so I kinda wish to stay home being carefree a little while longer. But so far I am already handling the situation somewhat well, I think. So I hopefully will manage to keep it up.
I’ve come to realize I tend to whine and talk about boring unhappy things on this blog. I apologize to whomever bothers to read it haha. I am not always in such a bad mood, I can be happy too ofc! But I tend to not be a very good blogger haha.
Wishing everyone a good good day! ^w^
Winter Holidays has finally arrived! I got home Thursday night, because I had two hospital appointments on Friday. a spent most of the Friday outside, and didn’t stay home for very long, the next morning, today, I jumped on the train once again! Traveling is tiring, but I do enjoy train rides. After the flood causing some train track damages, I had to take the bus first for about an hour and half, then jumped on the train. I gotta admit, Norwegian nature and scenery is quite pretty. And to me it’s beauty truly shines when I stare out of the window while traveling. Some classical piano music soothing my ears and mind, while I gaze out of the windows. Where I see trees looking freshly showered with sparkling drops of water, showing off the green color very nicely of the trees, as the sun shines on the endless trees. While where the sun yet has not shined yet, in the shadow, I see sparkling frosty white trees, a thin layer of snow covering the grass, water with thin layers of ice here and there~ Truly beautiful isn’t it? Mountains covered in white snow, and the grey mountain parts peaking through the snow here and there, and the sun playing hide and seek behind the mountains. Fog making the fjords all mysterious and nice.
I love gazing at such scenery. It gives my mind and soul some genuine peace. And makes me appreciate this wonderful nature I’m surrounded by. Winter is here, and it’s just a matter of time until all I see is sparklingly white. When people’s warm breath hits the cold air, it looks like smoke ish coming out of their mouth. People all nicely packed in comfy big jackets, long warm scarfs and beanies.
After such thoughts and some peace in my mind and soul, I picked up my social psychology book, sipped some coffee, and read until both my eyes and mind got tired.
It’s soon time to jump off the train!
Someone once said “People who drink black bitter coffee like the bitterness, which other people hates, because they cannot feel the bitterness. And the few times they actually do feel the bitterness, they actually kinda enjoy it.”
I cannot recall who said this or where I’ve heard about this, but I feel like I can relate to this. To me, coffee is like my best friend, as silly as it sounds, however that’s how I see coffee, haha^^ Coffee takes away my bitterness. At times coffee makes me feel the bitterness, but wants me to like it, like I do, because at times you have to accept the bitterness in life, and smile it all away instead. : ]
Therefore, my best friend, bitter black coffee, lets me enjoy both the times I feel and don’t feel the bitterness. We go through hardships in life and enjoy the small simple things in life together ^^
Thank you, my dear friend Coffee.